This Christmas is going to SUCK. HARD.
LOL, I MEAN what I said. & *mehhhhhh* at the same time because I have decided to be negative for various reasons.

Anyway, Couldn't physically be arsed to do much on DA lately, busy and shit with stuff through I have been a tag more active the last few days.

I have chosen and applied to six universities for a combined degree in Economics & Politics. May I say, PERSONAL STATEMENT was a complete PAIN IN MY ARSE and no, I did NOT like it. Glad it is over now

Warwick - AAB+B , York, Birmingham, Leeds, Manchester, Sheffield

Plenty of safety nets for me with the unis as the grades aren't too high but I am told it depends on the level of competition. To be honest, the only University I really want is Warwick. I did consider applying for more competitive unis like Oxford/ Cambridge or LSE, since I screwed one of the AS grades and I don't actually want to go to those unis if I had a choice, I decided not to waste a place.

I have nothing interesting to say really. Half term is coming to an end, DAMNIT! This half term was crapper than expected but did have people cheering me up. .

I FUCKING LOVE CHRISTMAS . (Just to let you know )

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I have always been one to believe that I should say how I feel without regret, about certain things.

Yet, lately I have come to realised that sometimes, somethings are meant to be Unsaid. If I just hold on a little longer (after A LOT of moaning & mehness), it might pass without doing too much damage.

I didn't know how to handle it at first, it was something I didn't expect would exist and became so powerful that it overwhelmed me and I can't say for sure that it won't in the future. So let's hope it will die down a bit more soon. Lol.

Man, for some reason, I have discovered that NOTHING have felt RIGHT in my life for a fair while now. I kept wondering why, in search for an answer...

I wish someone / something, could make it right. I feel so far away from anywhere safe and real. Reality seems ugly and everything esle around me seems like an illusion that won't last.

I just want something real to hold onto, it seems.